Haha, sorry for the random post. It sort of just came to me like an epiphany.
What do you do when you're in love with one of the most ultimate unavailable guys?
For the past year, I've been crushing on this guy who is completely quiet, shy, and selfless. You'd think that he'd be close to perfect, except for the fact that almost every girl I know is falling for him, and did I mention that he's moving to the Philippines in a year?
SO, how did I come to fall for him? Well, when I first met him, there wasn't a whole line of girls wanting to date him, and I had no clue that he was leaving. At first, it started out as just being aquaintences. I saw him in the hallways every so often and thought about how cool it would be to actually get to know him even though it seemed impossible since he was SO shy. But one day, I got a prank call. People told me that it was him and gave me his number so I could foolishly ask him why he prank called me and such. We texted each other back and forth and I soon found out that it wasn't him who said all the rude things in the prank call but someone else. I expected that our small encounter would be the only one until we continued to text each other. Even when his texting was taken away, we still constantly called each other and talked for hours. We got to know each other and somewhat understand eahc other in a way I never thought possible. After being best friends for a few months, it came to the awkward point when someone would ask the other out. And, I'll admit, I was falling for him, and I knew that he felt at least something in return. But, he couldn't have any type of relationship because his parents wouldn't allow it since he was leaving to the Philippines. I would've said what I felt anyways, but we got into an arguement.
One day, he called me and seemed very frusturated. He told me that he couldn't wait to leave this blasted country. That everyone here wasn't good enough for him, how his only TRUE best friends lived in the Philippines. I calmly told him that I thought we were good friends, but he didn't respond. I was very hurt and felt so stupid for liking someone SO shallow. If he wanted to get rid of me, he didn't have to make up that ridiculous story! But then I thought about the kind of person he was : gentle, shy, quiet, soft-spoken. This boy is not capable of hurting someone.
Even though I knew that there was something false about what he said, I never confronted him about it. We just became people who once knew each other. Eventually, many other people have taken a liking to him, but he surprisingly never shows liking to them back. I have almost gotten rid of all my feelings for him, but I still can't completely git him out of my head. Because, I'm the only one out of all those girls who has actually been able to know him, and I am the only one who he has liked ( i think). This coming up school year is his last year here. Should I tell him how i feel? Should I try to regain our past friendship?
I know that this is foolish false teenage love, so, is it all even worth it?